The Journey

I only posted once and then decided face book was the  best way to keep in touch.. I decided today that I needed something different..I could still post on fb but if too long, I could link you to hear... God has been so good.. I will not lie.. This journey has been long and very difficult.. There have been so many things to praise God about and I am so thankful that he has brought me through the trials and tribulations.. This journey has been going on since June-July of 2011. Once all of the plans had been made, I was thinking I would be back to work and rolling by now, but God had other plans... He wanted me to be still a little longer and rest in his timing.. Most of you know, but for those of you who do not know, I woke up from surgery and could not speak well.. Through multiple dentists, orthodontists, doctors of all kinds, my primary care dr, ent doctors, nuerologists, etc... God brought me to Emory with a diagnosis that I had already diagnosed, but couldn't figure out why and still don't know.. I was diagnosed with oramandibular dystonia. It can be caused from certain medications as well as trauma to the mouth, teeth, jaw, etc.. I have had all and especially with surgery. The only thing we are unsure of is the medications... In saying all of that, it makes it hard to eat and speak and I have lost a lot of weight.. Now back in the summer, I could have stood a few pounds. Now I just need nutrition.. So, I am asking each of my friends and prayer warriors to pray that this continues to heal. I am taking a round of shots that can only be administered every 3 months.... somewhat discouraging... and I am also taking nutritional supplements as well as trying to learn to juice.. If any of you know of someone who would like to help with that, I could sure use it...

Yesterday and today seemed to be a back hill slide and I just said to God today... I just want to quit.. I have three beautiful children, a husband and a wonderful family who has supported me all the way, but I feel as if I am not of any good to them. I can't talk well. I can't eat. I am not fun to be around... God what do you want me to do........I looked in the floor and remembered I had bought a book mark....This is what it said...

Don't quit....

When trials come, or things go wrong, when hardships last a bit too long, if you need help, go ask for it, but don't give up, and don't you quit.

Don't think about what might have been, when you're knocked down, get up again, then give yourself a talking to; believe those who believe in youl

When you are tempted to admit that it'd be easier to quit, instead of quitting, just why not give it everything you've got? Don't give up, and don't give in, that's the way you're sure to win. Persevere and stick with it, you'll succeed if you don't quit..... Author unknown.....

Keep praying for me dear friends... This journey hasn't been easy, but God has reminded me just today of others who I need to pray for.... I just need the continued prayers of all my warriors... so that when I don't feel like praying, I know someone else is...or when I get down, I know someone is lifting me up.. God will get the glory...I don't understand why this continued issue happened but it has and I have been reminded not to try to get out of things prematurely. Let the work be finished so that I will become mature and well-developed not deficient in any way.. James 1:2-4 A hard verse.... 

God is going to make me completely whole and I will be a better person...